Nothing more than a couple of wishes

I wish you had been smarter.
I wish I was a better lover.
I wish you had gone faster,
Wish that had made me lighter
I wish I know what was going on,
Maybe you could have hold on a little more...
I wish you really believe I`m different,
Which does not make me excellent.
I wish that for once you understood you mess it up
And you could swollow your pride.